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Name: Sarah
Location: Illinois, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Travelling, Europe, Spanish, hanging out with friends, and constantly being busy. I hate when I have nothing to do.
Expertise: TALKING. and working with kids :-)
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
7/24/2003
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| I'm glad that what happened this week happened. Regardless that I almost failed my degree approval, so many other things have come from it, and it gave me the opportunity to really learn and communicate with the people around me. It also showed me true honesty and what real support and friendship is. I've been ignoring a lot of things lately. A lot of things. I've been pushing emotions and people away because I'm sick of waiting for the friendships to end. I'm sick of waiting for them to not keep up their end of the bargain. This week brought everything to a sickening halt and it pushed my face into the shit that I've been avoiding and creating by not taking care of things. By not taking proper care of myself. I'm at the point where I'm understanding what is going on, and I'm trying to learn.
But it's still three in the morning and I'm not asleep.
It's been almost 9 weeks since I've made the decision to not be sick anymore and to actually get myself some help. It's been 10 years since I've gone this long. These past 3 weeks were really difficult, especially this last one, but as each day passes and I lose track of time, I find that sometimes, just a little bit, it gets a little bit easier. It's still harder than anything I've ever done, but wanting to do this for myself -- not to please anyone, not to keep people from getting mad at me, but to really, truly do this for myself -- has kept me going.
My brother also got into college this week which renewed hope in my family. It's fascinating to see what a single letter can do. I'm extremely happy for him though, he needs to get away from Upton.
I feel a new song brewing, but I'm not quite sure yet what's to come. I'm excited for this summer and some potential open mics.
I'm excited to ride my bike. (:
-s.
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| Reading through these are mildly embarrassing, no? I contemplated deleting them all, but I decided against it. Good to see where I've come from. .... yeah. Tomorrow's my last math class. HELL YES! My teacher... dear God. There aren't even words for that one. Merry Christmas, etc -S | | |
| Um, so.. I don't want to leave Chicago. Like I legitimately want to go home for like a week then come back. Is that a really bad thing? -S. | | |
| 1383 days since this account joined xanga. I was thinking today, or at least trying to remember, how Zack and I met. I can't seem to place it. But I know I got a xanga because of him. and the name was written by him. Something like, sliznickchizickotchi. yeah. I'm going to go try and find that, actually, haha. Funny thing, Zack, I don't know if you remember way back when, but you, Mickey and I were all talking on the phone once and I sang for you guys this little ditty. well, that song came in my head! I haven't sung that since like.. seventh grade! it was so weird. Finals are next week. That's going to suck. Moving in with Angie on Saturday. That's going to be freakin AMAZING. I'm so excited for that week. All I have to do is make it 5 more days. Just five more... -S. | | |
| I learned a new word today. Koyaanisqatsi. It means life is out of balance. Most days, that's how I feel. -S. | | |
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